So if I’m being 100% completely honest I was TERRIFIED of labour! I have been, my whole life. I always knew I wanted to be a mom, but growing up I always said I wanted to be knocked out and to just wake up with a baby. I remember reading The Memory Keeper’s Daughter in first year University (it was an amazing book for very different reasons) but in the first chapter they mention for difficult births they did in fact sedate the mother and I was sold. I totally wanted to avoid it all together. Even once I got my “tramp stamp” for the record, a true hipster I got the tatt before it was cool (a raven, on my lower back) and I found out I might not be able to get a epidural I was broken hearted. I was THAT scared.
But this is the truth:
Beforehand: Most women are scared beforehand. It’s a pain like nothing you’ve ever experienced, for the most part it’s indescribable but mostly- it’s different for everyone so you can’t tell anyone what they will experience or how it will be for them.
During: I can tell you this. No matter how easy your labour is (on the scale of stories I’ve ever heard, mine with Xavier was relatively easy) at the time, it won’t feel easy. It will feel hard, painful and kind of scary.
Afterwards: As time passes you get over it. Everyone does. Within a day or two I wasn’t as sore, Within a month or so the bleeding and soreness pretty much subsided, and after a couple months you finally bit by bit start feeling like yourself again- only a new self that has an incredible purpose, responsibility and is filled with so much more love than you ever thought possible.